Very broken to day

i have been ill for the last few days, in pain, and medication making me sick

But am feeling broken, I feel like some members of my family hve let me down, in a big way , but as I contaplated on the stations of the Cross I felt how hard and hurt Jesus felt when he’s friends turned on him,

I feel some times I am not appreciated tries thighs and felling could be the devil, discouraging me, after all it is lent and we are tested.

I think I am feeling lonely as I don’t have my family around me it would be so easy Ro throw it all in and end my life,buy that is what satin wants, it is not of God,it’s a tempatation so I have. To fight the tempatation, ,cling to our Lady and ask for her help.

Tomorrow please God it will be a better day 👏

yes lent is a struggle

I have been trying to do some different things during lent, and it has been a big struggle,with my Husband home all day and works at night, i feel trapped, i like the silence, but he puts the TBV ON ALL DAY, i have to walk out side or go to my bed room, for quite, it is hard, a big struggle and i am not dealing with it so much…

The last two days I have been quite ill, and wasn’t even able to pray and be in peace with my soul, it make me think of how it is when you feel well and don’t appreciate all the things you can do, well i was so sick, it turned out to be one of the medications i was taking for my Pain, so now i will just learn to try and put up with the pain till i see the Dr on Tuesday..

It would^nt be a struggle if i didn’t have people down my back telling me what to do saying how i should be going to the first saturday, and how i should be doing this and that, i have to learn to switch off with out been rude to them, maybe if i was rude to them they might get the hint!! it is indeed frustrating and very downgrading, it is to the pain i feel like screaming For God sake leave me alone and worry about your own soul!!

i guess this is what lent is all about trying to deal with all the annoyances and try and offer them up to the Lord, I don’t know how i am going to get through Lent, but i will hold on to the lord and just let me lead me in the quietness of the night.

I am not a lost soul

After praying this morning and Sitting with the Lord I. Have come to relise I am not a lost Soul 

I am blessed beyond words ,more than I can say, and I am grateful for Gods love,

So will changing the name of this blog  see you all soon

God is always waiting for me 🌾

I have been blessed again,with Gods grace,.

I was blessed to be able to have time share my soul with a good priest, to be able make mends with God,and start again.

It is the beginning of lent, my heart wants to just fall into prayer, attend Mass More and be with the Lord more than ever…a desire that has not left me for days.

Despite me been in horrible pain, for the last few days, I know in my suffering,I am with the Lord in the agony of the Garden, sitting with the Lord ~ just being with the Lord not even speaking a word~ just absorbing his LOVE ~

Let us be with the Lord this Lent ~

A very blessed day

We had David’s family
Over today to meet our little granddaughter Evie Rose, it was a lovely BBQ and I had lots of cuddles with Evie, and a few smiles. ,it was indeed a blessing, I have been praying for this day for a long time,please God this will continue, our little Evie Rose is so cute

Without love, deeds, even the most brilliant, count as nothing.

Gods Graces

To day I was speaking to a friend and we were soaking, I felt as God was in this conversation, I felt the Holy
Spirit touching my heart.

After getting off the phone, I came to the realisation, I do need to get back to Mass. And I do need to go to confession,..

This is what is wrong with me, I need the sacraments, to help me cope with the difficulty in life,the big crosses I am facing, the sadness,

So tomorrow is a new day ..

Please continue to keep me in your prayers 🌺

Reflections on the Readings for Sunday, February 1, 2015

We indeed need Jesus 💕

Catholic Working Mom

Readings for today

There are real prophets sent from the Lord Himself to whom we are instructed to listen  – and there are false prophets whom we are warned against.  How do we tell if a prophet is sent by God or if he/she is really on the side of evil, or of self?  In scripture, Jesus tells us that good trees produce good fruit and bad trees bad fruit.  We can discern a prophet’s origin by the “fruit” produced.  Is he/she self-serving?  power-hungry?  arrogant?

In the psalm, we sing, “If today you hear His voice, harden not your hearts.”  Most of us, I would dare say, have never actually heard God’s voice – at least not in the way that Moses heard it in the burning bush.  However, we do have the voice of God in the Bible – the book that He inspired human authors to write.  As…

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Feeling of emptiness

In a snap of an eye I don’t know if I can continue , I am feeling very empty to the point of crying,maybe if I cried I would feel better! I don’t think so.
The darkness has come over me like never before and I feeling like just ending it all
I have begged God to help me, and just a miniature ago I got a phone call from Carmel Lady from our church seeing if I would like to go to to the first Saturday and go to confession, but I declined,she said that to ring her later in the week if I change my mind! I don’t know what is wrong with me…maybe I have lost my faith,may be I should just have a break and not think about anything 😹every thing is to difficult🌷

It’s Sunday today and I really am feeling crap..maybe I should have just to Mass and sat their…,!

Well hopefully I will feel better tomorrow